WHEN?

When is a good time to move on?

I have no clue, you see I have been in a real sad situation and basically I still am. Its been a year and 6 months and still am in this limbo that wont let me move on. Sometimes am good, sometimes I'm just sad and some day's I am clueless as to what is normal and what is just my head.

I thought I was over and done with this situation but I have come to realize that my heart just wont let go. Its real hard because I cant say anything because this fear I have of more rejection, but only from him. You see I don't have any problems, iF a person does not like me, fuck you, if he does not like me, Oh shit!

I know its sad and ridiculous on my part but this is me. This has been real hard,from a different point of view ppl have said I look great, this separation has really made you grow and change into a more beautiful chick bla , bla, bla, but only I know what's really going on with me.
I know I'm not the prettiest, or the chick with a perfect body, or the most understating, but my improvement has been 100% and I have ppl that can vouch for that.

Sometimes I wonder if this person realizes it, the fact That I still love him like the first day and the fact that I have made changes that basically changes the entire situation s so has he. It hard because like now I'm writing this and I get all choked up and feel like I can loose it and start to cry.

I don't know whats going to happened to me nor to him , yes we talk, we see each other casually but I have a feeling he just doesn't feel the same and this is whats breaking my heart, the fact that we made promises and well enough said.

How do I know when just to walk away from it all? I have tried and it does not last very long I make stands and nothing. Maybe he has been in love with someone for a long time and I was in the way, maybe what was going on is for real, maybe he and I are in a real good place and he wont admit it.
Some times I just want to say, Dude I love you, let;s give this a real change, now with the knowledge we have , because in the past it was all a mess because we were hung up on our issues we could not get passed it.

What should I do? I cant live like this, I can't loose him, I just don't know what to do.