Change

Like I have said in past post,I have had some real bad years , tons of up's and down's and just when Im right up there boom! something happends.

Last week I came to the conclusion that if I dont chnage certain things , Ill keep fucking up and nothing good will come out of it. So I changed drastically my way of living that for the past year I had adopted. The drinking, smoking, the late, late nights have to end. Well not end but I had to put some stucture back into mua's life.

With help 2 great friends I started step by step and let me tell you my mein friends...it has worked. Im not 100%, and with the shit that keeps coming up , I probably wont be for a long ass time, but Im much better. I started my very strick diet, which last time I did it helped me loose 51 pounds thank you very much. I am doing my exsersise and the newest thing is BellyDance class.
Okay so I may not look like the type but I went with a friend who was just like me and in 4 months she lost 40 pounds, dah!!!!! So I called and its a bit expensive, but is workable. So Im all good with that. Apart from eating every 3 hrs, which is a hassel and it basically sucks but it makes my metabolisim run.

I do go out dont get me wrong, I have things to to almost every day but now I choose and I may not stay till 6am. I have tons of friends who help me out, for exsample Im not drinking anymore....in a month its only been one drink and it was last Tues. @ a gallery.Gin...yeap....
I have friends who call me up just to check if I had lunch. And one friend in particular who about a week or so ago actually thru a healthy bar into the garbage and got me in the car and made me sit down and have a hot meal. I hate him...but he was right. I have not had many hot meals in month's. unless I visit my mom, or go to a rest. So Benny...thanks alot.

Am I happy.... sometimes Im ok and sometims well nah, but one thing is Ill get better, and shit will always happend...but it does not have to be the end of the world.
I wanna thank, Emma, Cam, Rikky, Paco, Nati, Javier, Benny,Biann, Wale and my parents for all they have done these past 3 years.
Love you all.