Grandma's

Two day's ago something happend that made me real sad. You see, I have both my grandmothers alive, but yet is like I dont at the same time. One of them has always lived in New Jersey and I hardly get to see her. The other one she is here in P.R, but...I hardley ever see her too.
Let me give you a brief backround....two very diffrent lady's.
Grandma # 1
She lives far. She is the sweetest caring and gentle person I know. This one in particular will do anything for me. She has been there in good, bad and terrible times for me, even far away. She wastill a few years ago a very hard working lady, very spiritual, and a soft way. She call's to ask about me and you can tell she cares, and if Im suffering,... in a starge way she already knows and she will call me up and make it all better. She has had her up's and down's, she is sick and old and even though she sometimes feels like crap...you will never know cause she does not complain. She does not have much, but what she has she is greatfull for. She is and old fashion grandma that gives you hugs and kisses and till this day even money.. jaja! A simple woman
Granma # 2
She live's her i P.R. She is alive, alert, and always on the go ( NO SE PIERDE UN QUINCEAñERO)jeje! She is complicated, demands attention, very funny, she drinks beer till this day, wine , whatever you give her. She enjoy's traveling, she lives in a beautiful house with my aunt and uncle, she dresses up and is always intact. She is not like most grandmas. She will NEVER tell you how old she is and she is always matching. Sometimes she can be a bit rude. She cares , she has giving me much to learn and I love het too.

The thing is they are very old, and one of them I hardly see and the other one for reasons am not going to get into....we hardly even talk or see each other. I miss them sooo much.
Im luck cause they are alive....but I don't get to hang with them. Last time I saw them when all was well was last Dic.

Grandma # 2 came by the office to pick something up and it was sooo awkward and sad. Sad becuase for stupid shit that does not envolve us too....for some reason it seperated us. I did not know If I should give her a hug, a kiss, say hi and leave or what...and when she looked at me....you could see it in her eyes she missed me as I did too.

It got me thinking that mabey I should let het know I love her cause .. life happensd sometimes and I will regreat it.

I did not mention I have a grand father.... he is alive, he is in PR. thank God and even if he is my Ex- Husband grand father he has become mine too. This one is a hoot. H e is alive, jokes around , a funny and spititual man, will loads of energy, He is an old fashion , very family oriented man that like my grand ma @ 1 gives me money, a yummy Malta, cookies ...anything to go when I see him. He call's me his girl, and hugs me and kisses me still. Even though In not part of the family anymore....he always treats me like if nothing ever happend...and I love him alot. So in all its sad cause sometimes family shit will get between ppl you love and miss and (orgullo) is a bitch.
I love you all and miss you . De corazon....