Broken

What do you do when you figure out someone very close to you has lied?

So I imagine there are hundreds of blogs about this but, I wonder....

So what do you do? Do you forget? Do you act like nothing went wrong? Do you act on it? Do you fight like a mad woman?
Or do you just run away from it?
I'ts sad cause when you give you self to someone, when you open your heart, and soul . When you with your eyes closed... just belive everthing that comes out of this persons mouth and then you find out, half of what was said... was a lie. I just die .. inside.
I have cried alot these past few years. I have probably fallen as hard as a human being can . My heart has been ripped into many, many pieces and it only gets worst ... but there are somethings that even if deep down you know I SHOULD FORGIVE. , there is no way you can.

I have been lied about many things, some stupid and some real important.
Can you ever forgive 100%?

Happy Birthday RIKKY!!!!

A unique video from a awesome band.
Unique,just like you.
Enjoy. Remember everything I said to you...

STAN LEE ON THE FUTURE OF COMIC BOOK MOVIES

So... I was thinking the other day.. about just stuff that I am sooo into now that I was not before. The first thing that pop up was movies like Starwars' Marvel...and Quintin... But cause all the new Marvel movies comming up, I could not help but to think of this one first.
Yes I do enjoy chick flick's... but lately..is all about Rambo, Rocky, Marvel, Any blood , killing spree, explotion type of flick. LOL.
So here , loving all that the great Stan Lee makes ... The future in movies
Enjoy... ;-)

Fucking awesome

Ok... so I had an Ex- husband and bestfriend, that was into all this, and guess what. Im loving it now. So This is something that before I get old .. Im gonna go baby!!!
Awesome toy's... for adults!!!!

Hey...This one is for all men out there

Enjoy!!!!!!!
I too can appriciate this.. Hey she's hot. Can't deny it.

TO YOU

As hard as making this dicision is, im happy, terrified, excited, sad, and just confused.
In this past 3 years I have grown so much. I have had my share of real bad moments in my life , moments I will never wish on anyone. I have cried, I haved laugh and I say... It's all good. Why? because all this has made me the person Im today. Im stronger, independent,and more goal oriented that before.

Im not quit sure Ill ever get over somethings ,loosing the love of your life can kill your heart. Mabey Ill never fing someone Ill love as much as I love him, mabey I will and he will become a treasured memory. I dont know.

Everyone tell's me ... Life has a funny way of working out, and you will never know what will happend. El mundo da muchas vueltas..... I just hope with this huge step im gonna make , I will find true peace and happiness, the kind of happiness that makes you glow.

I will always love this person... He was my everything... and still is. So I say... leave and live your life to the fullest. soon Ill be able to wake up in the mornings and have a smile on my face, permanent.


I gave him every piece of memory I had of him... all I have left is what's in my heart. That is worth much more than a picture, a card, a gift. I hope he treasures all our years together like I still do.

Its hard but I count on this man to be there , to hold me when I fall, kick me when Im being stupid and to share with me the good things in life.
All I can ever say is ... You rock. Even if we have our up's and downs, we yell, scream, laugh, smile, count on... We will always have this amazing memory of years and years of bliss. You were my bestfriend when we started and became my life....

Hey.. Im not saying Im depress and I can't live with out him... Im just letting the world know.....Its hard to loose something sooo amazing, and dealing with it sometimes can take control of your actions and emotions.
I still see him and smile. Im glad we can still be friends, and hopefully get over all the drama....lol and be happy.

To you babe, to our friendship, memories and connection that will never ever fade.

Turn Me On

This weekend.... This song was playing while we were talking.
I'll always remember what you told me. I will miss you so much.
WE have had our up's and down's. I just hope atleast our friendship will always be present.

Sooner than I think

This is ME

So lately I have been thinking alot about who am I. So many things have happend to me that its change me. Mabey for better, mabey for worst.
So this is me. My like's and dislikes, the music I like,my pet pevees...

Im I think a perfect size.. not to tall, not to short. My color hair is light brown, my eyes are green. My style varies from time to time. During work I like trousers and nice tops. Pencil skirt's and very very high heals. Weekend jeens , always tight and evry low cut and love my converse, but im also wearing alot of wedge's.
I always have my watch..a big one @ that and rings and so worth. I can not go anywear without mascara. and a bit of lipgloss... that's a must.
I love Sushi, I drink alot of water, I love bread but hardly eat it and Im crazy about chocolate,the darker the better. I love Italian, mexican food and Churrasco. In my book Salmon rocks. Im not a huge drinker, but my fav. are Margaritas Chamboard 1800 and Pomegrate. I like vodka and Black Lable. and as for beer. Heinekken light would be my favorite. Redbull light and love , love banana and mango batidas.
I hardly watch tv.. If I like something ILL TVO IT. My fav programs would be Best week ever, Sex n The Cit reruns... Scrubs, South Park, WWE,and I love The Office.. with passion. Love , love movies. As for music, well punk. metal. jazz.. a combination. im easy in that deparment.
As for me...I like my men taller than me.. but thats easy. fair skin light eyes and dark hair.. long hair is my thing.. and a relax trendy feel to him. Granted I had that and well... thats a diffrent blog. lol
I love cafe!, I love my Mac. Wake up in the morning and its the first thing I check. I hate to cook. but I do it if I have to, I love to race.. I step on the gas in my Honda like if I was on the track. My favorite color is blue. I dont sleep much anymore, I have loads of nightmares, I love candles.. prefebly Gardenia scent. I hate to wash dishes.. with passion, I love to sing in traffic and in the shower. I love boyshorts, and I tend to wear white after tanning. I I hate liars.People.. things always come out. !!!! I very puntual, and Im very sarcastic. I love dark humor and ppl who make me laugh.
I was maried, had my up's and downs so if I ver get married... I will never change who I am. I dont care if people agree with me or not, Ill have my day's off as he will to. Our time out will be untouchable.
Most important thing other than trust is kissing... he has to be great @ it.
Im not a dancing , clubing person but I do like to have fun so I would love it if @ least twice a month we can do just that.. have beers , nite with friends if you will.
I love my feather bed and my pillow ... a gift. one of the best gift ever, Thermaputic. I put The beatles when Im under stress and on long trips is all about Pink Floy. I love empanadillas de Pizza, lol and I hate jugo de tamarindo. Ricon is one of my favarite hideaways and I enjoy driving to far places. I am addictid to MSN and I spend sometime in Facebook, youtube and blooger. Jijiji!!
I love my cellphone.. I cant live without it. I have loads of so called friends but just 4 I actually consider family. I am very felxible lately... not like before, I do my nails alot and love black n brown nail polish. I have 2 tatoos and 1 nose ring.
One of my most memorable memories was my wedding day, the day we both got our new apartment, and the day I figured out I was in love. ... so long ago. I used to not like Starwars.... well never had seen then until someone taught me ll bout it.. now its a part of me. I adore taking pictures.. my hobbie and it has become a way for me to smile. Ther are some places I would love to live, NYC!!! (coming soon) haha!!Tokyo, Colorado,Greece, and Paris. One of thouse.. and Ill be happy. I love the snow, hate Bacalao, Love boxing and enjoy basketball. I always wanted to have a boy and a girl.. these days... mabey a girl.. not sure. I live for pancakes on saturdays... but I can harly eat them... Cranberies and strawberries are the best. I think men with tatoos rock. Messages .. cant live with out... OMG!!! I hate the goverment .. Bush and what ever crap we have in PR at the moment. Im always joking around.. I ahve a great sence of humor.. and I had lost that years ago. thank God its back. My parents and brothers are very important to me. The rest.. can kiss my ass.I have done some... things in the past, but I ve been done some real bad things too.
The worst years of my life have been 2005 till now. I hate socks, and play alot of Gotcha. Im considerd one of the guys cause they can say just about anything and ill just laugh. I have gotten drunk .. real drunk mabey 6 times in my life .. mabey less. Ive been to Divas with Paco.. lol and hate , hate milk. Im not sure ill fall in love ever again. But for now Im leaving the best single life ever.
Hooked on Playstaion... Resident Evil..yes, yes. and If im erbous I through up, get dizzy, and cry alot.
My famimy is Dante now... but Ill never ever forget my Dorado family... he will never take that from me. I hate Big brands and dont own a thing.. I only have 1 coach bag and my mom got it for me, I hate expensive jewelry... a waste of time, i rather spend it traveling.
My favorite decoration is all white .. less is more. My favorite store is Urban Outfitters , Banana Republic , Lucky Brand, and Gap. Converse are the only sneakers I wear and some Pumas I got Oh yeah and Kangaroos. My Ipod rules.
Well this is about it.. I think. Cant really say anymore .. you might get bored. and I kinda want something to be between me and .....
See ya. Peace

Operation:Flowbee

IS THIS SHIT FOR REAL????

He called me... too late

Im visiting my buddie Edwin @ Dorado and who do I see? OMG!! he goes, its you... your back. I smile.
We talked for mabey an hr becuase it had to be somewere @ 6 pm. He told me he had been traying to contact me but he never saw me again. Then he took me by my face and asked me..Is it true? Are you moving?....
Yes, I am. Im leaving in September. Why , he asked, well lots of reasons, mainly I just need to get away from a certain someone. Oh!! I see, hesaid with a sad face.

Long story short, I gave him my number, and today inbetween somenasty conversation.. who call's me? He does. I smiled like if I had gotten a gift or something.

I thought to my self.... Damn.. if he only called before.
Such is life.

Chris Rock - Black People Vs Niggaz

OMG!!!!PACO... CAN YOU MAKE TIME MOVE FASTER.
WE ARE GOING TO LOL

This one is dedicated to you....

Cause you are the only one ill be with till the end.
*Fall to Pieces live at Budokan

The Hulk 2 - Official 2008 Movie Trailer

Guess who's going to the movies tonite... claro esta, primero unas Margaritas!!!!

Roger Waters: pig flies in Dallas 05.02.08

Wow..... NO words

Can it be possible?

So people have said I can write a book with all that has hapend to me. I laugh, but then I start tio think and yes ... its true. I could.

A month ago, someting terrible happend, and I decide to just make a drastict move.
Im moving far, away from the people I love and cheris, from my situations, from the love of my life and all I know.

Was I corect? I dont know, sometimes I feel soooo happy, and sometimes I just dont know. I am stuborn, and I wont change my mind now but at nite I think about everything and how lonely I will be and cry.

Sometimes we have to do things for our own good. Like it or not, hard and sad but we just have to.

Sometimes things happend that just crush you as a person. I can trully with out a doubt say, Im not even close to the person I was before. Is this good or bad? I have no clue.

My question is...Can I be happy and sad all @ once?

Someone very special.....

Dedicated this to me just moments ago.... I love you.

Is this dude for real????

WTF???

Billy Joel - Uptown Girl

I will never, ever forget . It wont matter were I end up....
you will always be the one.

U2 - One

This one is dedicated to ..... .....

Almost there!!!!

First choice...NYC!!!!