Thursday, March 27, 2008

For the record....



Need to say something.....
3 day's ago.... well something happend. and its has been great ever since. What? This is only for me to know....and so far my memory has been A okay!

I found out something about me.... and I like it alot. I got back tons of feeling that I had lost along the years, a nd every second of it will be cherished for ever. Other than last night I have been able to sleep great, and have wonderfull thoughts in my head. The days have been happy days, and every word said to me, every thought penetrates my soul...
Im getting it all back. Scarry but great all @ once.

I count the day's, the weeks the hrs and minutes.....

What a day....

So yesterday was a long ass day. Yes I am tired.... but that is an entire story...and Im not about to complain.hehe! But work was sad, and stressfull, My bitch of a boss was being her, I got all the saddest, or dicks of clients yesterday. some would not stop crying...that just breaks my heart, but some...I wanna just cut their ears off and feed it to some dogs. Yeah... jejej!

I have been having some great treats these pass several days but sometims it get me thing.... will this too explode on my face? Well someone very close to me told me last night.... live the moment... and that I have to turn things around..its me who makes the bad go away... be more positive and enjoy..... jajaj! sounds easy.... sip!

A cool cat posted old...let me point out(very old) horrible pics of us, and I was sooo surpreise , I had forgotten about them... it made me teary, happy, @ once. lets just say a path down memory lane...ahhhhhh!
So for that I thank him....

As for work.... mi negocio...down the f* drain... I need to figure out what the hell im goonna do. The god damn man waited sooo long, and the back,,,dont even get me started on the F* bank. So I have to sit and think real hard as too what I want and fast.

Some way cool things have happend... Rik finally cut his hair....Uff! sad but true. I got intouch with a great person agian.... like old times, Im in love with my new look... even it started as a mistake... not what I wanted @ all jajaj! and well, Im back on track, lost 2 more pounds....the past 2 weeks. PLaning a trip with the guy's and Nat and just doing okay...

So. so far.....still alive, Yes I did cut off aPoliceman yesterday, yes but he f* deserved it.

Today....im @ home, cause the night..well another day. and Im going to have lunch with my bestfriend Biann and waiting for.....

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

A shot of Coffee...FUCK YEAH!!!!


From The Sherman Foundation comes a fantastic idea - a coffee inhaler. seems to me like it'd be the perfect solution when you have to catch the redeye and they stop all liquids at the gate. Hey, if you can inhale alcohol, why not coffee?

For myself, I prefer to snort my coffee directly through a dollar bill after cutting it up on a glass tabletop, but this would be a good backup.
Okay soif this is real, I would have died and gone to heaven...PPL who know me, know that Starbuck's and I have a bond.
Tonight I will meet my girl's @ a Starbucks and Ill let them know of this. Yes tonight is a girls night...a bit of chit-chat and loads of coffee. No men allowed. Well not untill later ,very much later. jeje!! right girls????? hahahahah!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Dream Theater - Time [ Pink Floyd Cover ]

Resident Evil 5 Official Trailer 3

ARMY OF TWO




GameSpot Score
6.5
fair This better than average shooter is fun to play with a friend, but it's best not to think about the subject matter.

QUATERLIFE



Known for their incisive portrayals of relationships and experience during life's key passages, Herskovitz and Zwick take on the crucial years between 20 and 30 in "quarterlife," when so many of life's important decisions are made. "quarterlife" tells the ongoing stories of six creative people in their twenties. As with Herskovitz and Zwick's earlier series, at the center of "quarterlife" is a commitment to realism and the recognition of universal human themes through the truthful depiction of the way young people speak, work, think, love, argue, and just have fun.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Help!!!!!!!


GOD....IM CALLING OUT FOR HELP

Fuck this shit.



Im going to get this shitty book......

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Grandma's



Two day's ago something happend that made me real sad. You see, I have both my grandmothers alive, but yet is like I dont at the same time. One of them has always lived in New Jersey and I hardly get to see her. The other one she is here in P.R, but...I hardley ever see her too.
Let me give you a brief backround....two very diffrent lady's.
Grandma # 1
She lives far. She is the sweetest caring and gentle person I know. This one in particular will do anything for me. She has been there in good, bad and terrible times for me, even far away. She wastill a few years ago a very hard working lady, very spiritual, and a soft way. She call's to ask about me and you can tell she cares, and if Im suffering,... in a starge way she already knows and she will call me up and make it all better. She has had her up's and down's, she is sick and old and even though she sometimes feels like crap...you will never know cause she does not complain. She does not have much, but what she has she is greatfull for. She is and old fashion grandma that gives you hugs and kisses and till this day even money.. jaja! A simple woman
Granma # 2
She live's her i P.R. She is alive, alert, and always on the go ( NO SE PIERDE UN QUINCEAñERO)jeje! She is complicated, demands attention, very funny, she drinks beer till this day, wine , whatever you give her. She enjoy's traveling, she lives in a beautiful house with my aunt and uncle, she dresses up and is always intact. She is not like most grandmas. She will NEVER tell you how old she is and she is always matching. Sometimes she can be a bit rude. She cares , she has giving me much to learn and I love het too.

The thing is they are very old, and one of them I hardly see and the other one for reasons am not going to get into....we hardly even talk or see each other. I miss them sooo much.
Im luck cause they are alive....but I don't get to hang with them. Last time I saw them when all was well was last Dic.

Grandma # 2 came by the office to pick something up and it was sooo awkward and sad. Sad becuase for stupid shit that does not envolve us too....for some reason it seperated us. I did not know If I should give her a hug, a kiss, say hi and leave or what...and when she looked at me....you could see it in her eyes she missed me as I did too.

It got me thinking that mabey I should let het know I love her cause .. life happensd sometimes and I will regreat it.

I did not mention I have a grand father.... he is alive, he is in PR. thank God and even if he is my Ex- Husband grand father he has become mine too. This one is a hoot. H e is alive, jokes around , a funny and spititual man, will loads of energy, He is an old fashion , very family oriented man that like my grand ma @ 1 gives me money, a yummy Malta, cookies ...anything to go when I see him. He call's me his girl, and hugs me and kisses me still. Even though In not part of the family anymore....he always treats me like if nothing ever happend...and I love him alot. So in all its sad cause sometimes family shit will get between ppl you love and miss and (orgullo) is a bitch.
I love you all and miss you . De corazon....

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

MY NIGHTMARE



Tuve un dia reamente malo,y esa palabra se queda corta. La mañana me fue muy bien. mucho trabajo bien ocupada, luego empeze a recibir malas noticias, . De que? Bueno varias cosas famniliares, Trabajo, Algo bien malo que le paso a un amigo y luego de la nada a las 2 pm....suena el celular. Ring, ring.....
Cuando miro la pantalla casi me quedo sin aire. realmente me dio un flash back casi automatico. Como estoy con un cliente, pues le doy a ignore. luego a los 5 min. suena nuevamente y vuelvo a ver y es el....
Ya me empiezo a poner nerviosa , ansiosa, y hasta de mal humor. Tengo clientes y este en particular uno bien"charmin" y nota que cambie totalmente. Me preg. Que te paso..si me permites preguntar? nada ledije y segui trabajando. y a las 2:22 pm en punto suenta el F*ING TEL NUEVAMENTE, no puedo mas y contesto. hello! si con quien hablo linda? .Ummm....No con quien quieres tu hablar? ahhhh, creo que fue # equivocado linda. FUCK!

Me jodio la tarde y para mas decir la noche entera...automaticamente me senti como mierda. Me dio dolor de barriga, mucho dolor de cabeza, una ansiedad increible y me pasaba mirando el celular....mirando la pantalla, hoping que no volviera a sonar, pq lo hiba a coger y no se que carajo le hiba a decir. Llamo a Rikky, y luego de un tiempo me contesta, le explico lo que me pasa y me dice....tranquila, probablemente el no sabe a quien llama. What??????? nada cuento largo corto me senti peor y le enganche. Me senti mas sola que nunca. un nerviosismo increible, y solo eran llamadas. La trade se me acabo de joder, Papi con sus problemas, yo con todos los mios y nadie me llama para preguntar, estas bien? ness algo? Bueno ...llego a casa y ya habia hecho planes con la vecina para ir a correr so me cambie, y cuando llegamos me invitoa cenar en su casa, pero todo el tiempo con una perce de tres pares ...Fuck me! Llego a casa y me pongo a leer, y aun no queriendo mi mente se pone a correr el cabron evento. un me vuelvo loca pq aun no queriendo es imposible pq termino pensando en eso.Me baño, y empiezo a loorar, inconsolable....sin poder parar, con un encojonamiento, como los primeros dias....y miro alrederor y estoy sola, y con una perse cabrona. me quede media dormida y me levanto casi sudada...y contra en mi apart, hace un frio...y digo pal carajo me voy a dar una vuelta. no soporto estas paredes mas....luego llego a casa y casi me obligo a dormir.
1am.....me levanto histerica....y metiendome la mano en la boca para evitar tragarme algo.. me pongo histerica pq casi no puedo respirar y me siento ahogada recuerdo el nerviosismo y en una trago pq casi me vomito y siento como un palito en mi garganta de tal manera que no baja y no llego para sacarlo. , no puedo dormir,ya estoy panicia! estoy super tapa y se me hace dificil respirar...., la cabeza me da vueltas y me pongo a pensar...que carajo se me pudo haber metido en la boca...un Qtip? Puñeta!!!! y me pongo mas nerviosa pq si me acuesto siento mas eso en la garganta...so me quedo sentada, empiezo a tomar agua. y a todo esto llorando del miedo pq estoy sola, y si me quedo dormida y no puedo respirar.... nadie tiene manera de entrar a la casa...un monton de mierdas me estan pasando por mi puta cabeza. , veo el reloj y era bein tarde...pensaba que la unica maera de leugo saber que carajo tengo es con un MRI.... Si lo se me estoy volviendo loca, ...siento el cabron palo entre ala garganta. Le envio un mensaje a Rikky...el se acuesta temp. nada...., pasan las hrs ....nada. Le unico que recuerdo luego de eso es que yo deje de ver el reloj a las 4:46 am, y luego me levanto la alarma y cuando me levante.... no sentia nada....en la puta garganta. Esto esta cabron....Me encojona todo lo que esta pasando.... me siento triste, sola, , molesta y ya no quiero bregar mas. quiero paz y tranquilidad. Dormir...
Recibo una llamada temprano de Jose....Mira las taquillas hay que buscarlas hoy...Okay...a donde? digo yo. A Rio Mar.....que?????? cuando ? despues de las 4pm.... , El me dice... para encontrarnos, pero cuando salga del trabajo, y yo le digo ...que no da tiempo. y qye pq no lo habia dicho antes/ y me dijo que estaba ocupado. mano me encojone... ahora a ver ciundo los dos podemos ir a buscarlos...yo no puedo ir sola... . Sip...que mal verdad?
El lleva casi dos meses hablandome de las putas taquillas.... ahora va hacer una trajedia como las del ultimo concierto...que pal carajodesisti de ir x lo mismo. A ver que pasa.

Monday, March 10, 2008

DOOMSDAY


Synopsis:
In the action-packed new thriller DOOMSDAY, from writer/director Neil Marshall (The Descent, Dog Soldiers), authorities brutally quarantine a country as it succumbs to fear and chaos when a virus strikes. The literal walling-off works for three decades--until the dreaded Reaper virus violently resurfaces in a major city. An elite group of specialists, captained by Eden Sinclair (Rhona Mitra), is urgently dispatched into the still-quarantined country to retrieve a cure by any means necessary. Shut off from the rest of the world, the unit must battle through a landscape that has become a waking nightmare.

What I wouldn't do.....


to be her with my favorite man right now. Ufff!! I get chill's just thinking about it. A fantasy? You can say so. For now I'll just pop in the DVD My favorite movie, The Note Book and weep and wish untill I get my dream to come true.

IRON MAIDEN BABY!!!!!!!



March 12 2008....PR will never be the same.... (Yeah...it probably will) because the legendary British Metal band Iron Maiden will be performing for us!!!!!!
Here is a bit of history for all the ppl who for some reason have never heard of this band...( I STILL THINK THERE IS NO EXCUSE BUT WHATEVER).

Iron Maiden" is a song by Iron Maiden on their debut album Iron Maiden. It was written by Steve Harris and had been featured before on The Soundhouse Tapes. The original recording featured Dennis Stratton and Dave Murray on guitars. The song is now well known as the band's signature song to the general public (along with "The Number of the Beast" and "Run to the Hills") and is usually played as one of the last songs of any given show. It writes about the spirit of an actual iron maiden torture device - it is not, contrary to popular belief, relating to the band itself.

The song has been the band's "final song" (when they leave the stage only to come back for their encores) for many tours. On majority of the tours, a giant representation of Eddie appeared from the back of the stage.

A live video was the 16th video played during the launch of MTV, making it the first heavy metal video ever played on MTV.

He-Man !!!!!!



"Los estudios Warner y uno de sus productores habituales, Joel Silver, se han unido a Mattel para realizar la adaptación en acción real de "He-Man and the Masters of the Universe".

En esta nueva ocasión, el productor y los escritores han definido el desarrollo de la película con una estética similar a la de "300" y con una historia clásica de lucha entre el bien y el mal.

Además de "He-Man", Marks se encuentra escribiendo otras historias como "Voltron", una serie animada que pasará al cine, la versión cinematográfica del videojuego "Street fighter" y una adaptación para Warner del personaje de DC Comics, Green Arrow."

Gente yo sere la primera en la fila cuando esta llegue a Puerto Rico, Yo me crie con He Man, es mas lo casaba con mi Barbie...Si uno de mis pocos" girly moments". Ni comento sobre Brad...quien mejor que este machazo????? Wow...

Cream Brulee or Vanilla Ice Cream?



I have a situation.... I can't really say yet butI can't seem to figure out which way to go. You see Im the kind of girl who had Cream Brulee, she enoyed Cream Brulee. Cream Brulee made her happy untill Crem Brulee dicide that other things more more important than me. Things changed and Well I have never seem to find another Cream Brulee that I liked like the one I used to love. Recently I have tasted Vanilla Ice cream....While it it plain and simple It makes me feel good. When I eat Vanilla Ice cream I feel satisfied, never the less I know I deserve Cream Brulee but Vanilla Ice cream is something I can have on a daily basis and not gain weight, while Cream Brulee is addictive and yummy, I know it wont be available 24/7. What to do? What to do?

Make this come true...

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And I promiss to be a good girl this year. I will eat all my veggies, never drink again (ummmm) and be home by 1:00am on weekends.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Conan The Barbarian




"This is, with the possibly exception of Lord Of The Rings, the finest sword and sorcery movie ever made" Can you belive some geek actually said this in his page? Can't belive I never saw this gem of a movie. All I now is my brother's and I lol so hard we cried. And the monkey fight scence.....jajajajjajajajaj!

THREE-HOUR RAW. You can't miss it




Milwaukee will be rocking with three hours of action as Raw airs a special "WrestleMania Rewind Night" extravaganza. Superstars from Raw, SmackDown and ECW will battle in rematches from past WrestleManias, giving competitors the chance to rewrite – or relive – history.

Also... Floyd Mayweather and Big Show will meet in an official WrestleMania weigh-in, and William Regal will tap either Triple H or Randy Orton as the next matchmaker for his "Triple Threat Takeover."

So on Monday I will be sitting pretty infront of my tv with my buddies and loads of beer...and h20 for me. Ppl if you like wrestling at least a bit, you cant miss this special. It will be worth it. TRUST

Friday, March 7, 2008

Change

Like I have said in past post,I have had some real bad years , tons of up's and down's and just when Im right up there boom! something happends.

Last week I came to the conclusion that if I dont chnage certain things , Ill keep fucking up and nothing good will come out of it. So I changed drastically my way of living that for the past year I had adopted. The drinking, smoking, the late, late nights have to end. Well not end but I had to put some stucture back into mua's life.

With help 2 great friends I started step by step and let me tell you my mein friends...it has worked. Im not 100%, and with the shit that keeps coming up , I probably wont be for a long ass time, but Im much better. I started my very strick diet, which last time I did it helped me loose 51 pounds thank you very much. I am doing my exsersise and the newest thing is BellyDance class.
Okay so I may not look like the type but I went with a friend who was just like me and in 4 months she lost 40 pounds, dah!!!!! So I called and its a bit expensive, but is workable. So Im all good with that. Apart from eating every 3 hrs, which is a hassel and it basically sucks but it makes my metabolisim run.

I do go out dont get me wrong, I have things to to almost every day but now I choose and I may not stay till 6am. I have tons of friends who help me out, for exsample Im not drinking anymore....in a month its only been one drink and it was last Tues. @ a gallery.Gin...yeap....
I have friends who call me up just to check if I had lunch. And one friend in particular who about a week or so ago actually thru a healthy bar into the garbage and got me in the car and made me sit down and have a hot meal. I hate him...but he was right. I have not had many hot meals in month's. unless I visit my mom, or go to a rest. So Benny...thanks alot.

Am I happy.... sometimes Im ok and sometims well nah, but one thing is Ill get better, and shit will always happend...but it does not have to be the end of the world.
I wanna thank, Emma, Cam, Rikky, Paco, Nati, Javier, Benny,Biann, Wale and my parents for all they have done these past 3 years.
Love you all.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Proud to be your friend.




No me imagino en la vida poder entender por lo que pasastes. Me alegro que en aquell entonces no estuvistes sola. Aparte de tu familia bella Javier Pintor....ha sido un gran amigo y me alegro por ti.
la vida nos volvio a unir, y por eso le doy gracias a Dios porque personas como tu hay pocas. Me da mucha lastima no haber estado ahi en el momento mas dificil de tu vida pero siento un honor imenzo el hecho de que me pidieras que estuviera ahi contigo al igual que Javier para apoyarte.
Me alegro que todo saliera tal y como querias. Nunca pense que eras tan fuerte. Admiro a tu familia y mas que nadie a ti amiga. Sabes que estoy aqui para lo que sea. Eres especial. Te quiero un monton, al igual que Javier.
Me alegro que este capitulo se cerro con broche de oro, y que tu sonrisa fuera una de alivio. Im proud to be your friend.

WRESTLEMANIA XXIV BABY!!!!


So I have been invited to Orlando for this grand event. Pipo,Javier, Pochy and Jonathan just called in conference call to invite Karla. I love this fucking sport, you see for years my ex husband would watch Raw and I actually started to love it. We even went to a Live Raw taping @ Philly once. Years passed and I got hooked more so that I still watch it alone and the guy's sometimes call me up and invite me @ there homes to have a WWE Party with loads of beers and alot of Ciclon for mua. Shit!!! I wanna go sooooooo bad. I checked and its actually cheap. This will make me real happy, so please God....make this come true. I have a place to stay for free. I promise I wont smoke or drink anymore....

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Transporter.... kinda look's like ?



Jason Statham is the Transporter, Frank Martin. More so than the first Frank Martin comes off as a super hero on this one. There is even a scene where a bad guy refers to Frank as a super hero.
I personally love super hero movies so I won't complain too much...cause his is way hot plus he looks like the guy Im sort of dating...Yummy.

Great movie to watch.

Vantage Point...a must see



I went with a cool dude to see this movie and let me just say...ahhhh!
Vantage Point is the story of the assassination of the President of the United States during a speech at a terrorism summit in Spain. William Hurt plays President Ashton, the man who is shot as he is about to take the podium to denounce terrorism. Unfortunately, talking about terrorism upsets the terrorists and they hatch a complicated plan that will rid the world of their number one nemesis. The movie shows us 8 different perspectives from 8 different people in the 20 minutes leading up to the assassination. It is from these 8 different points of view that we are supposed to piece together what really happened on that fateful day in Spain.