So its been awhile since I have been here. Well yup I moves and well let me tell you it has been crazy good and very crazy bad all at once. I moved on from all PR. :) But life alone is a very hard one.
Recap: My job is awesome and I have a cute apartment, My fam here is not always there for me but now Em lives here so that's great. I have met all types of ppl, some I choose not to talk to before and some have close to my heart.
Classic story of met a boy , liked him lots ... and then friendship hit stronger... poop. but at the end it worked out.
The reason I'm actually venting is because I met another boy :)... This boy not so available. we we hit it off and well even thou he was honest the entire time he was also miss leading with the out come of all this. kinda like this guy allot and well the past 2 weeks have not been the best and well for reasons that well .. they do make sense , he is choosing to work it out. Not with me with the gf.(Poop) and to tell you the truth. I'm devastated. sad, alone, shocked, depressed. woomp.
Well I acted like a normal chick would do. All I asked was for a lil more respect towards me. not as mad a bout not being the one he wants... just about how he choose to handle it. all via text and being pushed by me.
Wednesday was the worst. because I had all my friends how at one point seen me smile every second of a word day to complete shutdown and not wanting to be around anyone, tell me all their opinions about the situation..... I went crazy and text him things I would have never done. At one point they were telling me to forward all messages to her.
That's not Karla. That's not what I'm about. I would have died a lil the moment I did that.
Just wanna be okay. Just wanna smile again, just wanna be me again. Tell you one thing. Never again.
